The Worst Part is Knowing You Exist

I know I made you promise we'd stay friends
But I love you now, so we can't talk again."

The Worst Part is Knowing You Exist 
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The worst part is knowing you exist
How wonderful you tasted when we kissed
I didn’t know that there could be    
A man with all your qualities
A Mr. Darcy walking in my midst

I know I made you promise we’d stay friends
But I love you now, so we can’t talk again
I almost wish I never knew
That there could be a man like you
Who could have made me happy till the end

But, still, I know it’s good we got out now
We knew our days were numbered, anyhow
But it’s weird it hurts this much, this soon
My stomach churned all afternoon
My head aches from the wrinkle in my brow 

The worst part is knowing you exist
Imagining adventures that we’ll miss
You almost could have been my twin
We’ll never know what might have been
A love for the ages, wasted on a tryst